So here’s the link to the 30 Days of Truth. I’ve wanted to post so badly lately but I really didn’t know what to say or where to go. Other than the typical work stresses, I haven’t had a lot of excitement. Of course, after hearing this, I’m hesitant to write too much about my work and/or stresses even though my stress has come from co-workers and standardized testing, not students.
That being said, I’ll jump to the Day 2 Topic – which is one that I would honestly like to skip. It’s much easier to beat myself up than to praise myself. And I don’t want to sound like a snob by saying that there are some things I love about myself.
For instance, I love that I am a natural blonde. It’s a dark blonde (honey blonde maybe?) but blonde nevertheless. Only 2% of the world’s population naturally has yellow hair. Awesome. I love it and I love that I don’t have to dye my hair because I am WAY too low maintenance (I can never spell that word) with my hair choices. If I have to do more than wash and dry (and dry time must take less than 10 minutes, preferably 5) then I just won’t do it.
I love that people describe me as a positive person. I was shocked the first few times people described me that way but I was also extremely flattered. I always think of positive people as those who see rainbows and sunshine even on gray, rainy days. That’s NOT me. I get just as depressed as the next bloke seeing cloud after cloud and wondering how cold and nasty it is outside. I don’t really know when my outlook changed or why/how it happened but I’m thankful it has changed. I wonder if part of it has to do with being married to Joel. Whenever I go to him with a problem or issue, he is (almost) always able to point out how the situation really isn’t THAT bad and how it can be addressed. I think I’ve taken some of those strategies and started using them myself.
I also love that I am talented – I can sing, dance, and act. I have 14 years of trained dance experience, a BA in Theatre, acting awards, technical awards (for costuming) and too many show posters to count as my badges of honor from show participation. I AM
good awesome. I’m a little sad that I haven’t had a lot of time/opportunity to be able to delve into my talent pool now that I’ve moved to Huntsville. When I moved here 3 years ago, I was in graduate school full time, and all of my classes were at night. So there went two FULL years of no theatre. I was able to be in one community theatre production right after I graduated, but only because it had such a wonderfully flexible rehearsal schedule since it was an ensemble cast type show. I miss the theatre, I really do. But with teaching all day, I’m stinkin exhausted when I get home and barely want to get off the couch, not to mention go rehearse.
I say all this because – not a lot of people know that I’m talented in the arts, and if they DO know, they don’t know to what extent. A friend, who was recently cast in a local production as an understudy for a large role, was telling me about the show and all the ins and outs of the casting. She then innocently and excitedly tells me, “You would have been great in the chorus.” Ouch. Burn. Sting. That little comment was able to cut me to the core faster than I expected. And while I wanted to retort some snarky comment like, “Honey, I don’t DO the chorus,” I instead bit my tongue and just blankly looked at her. I think I might have smiled. I hope I smiled. Because if the inside reaction spilled out onto my face, then she might not be friends with me anymore.
I called my best friend, who is an actress, and told her the story. She laughed til she cried about how I could be “great in the chorus.” Damnit. That line will live on forever. It still annoys me now.
Wasn’t this supposed to be a love post?? How did I get here?